(2) Ups and Downs

Dear Sally,

Remember the guy I told you yesterday? The one who made me blushed all the way on that unpredicted encounter? Today I met him again in the library and as usual, we did not even talk each other when anybody else around (I wonder why also-so please dun bombard me with those ‘hello, mr right, i’m here please smile at me’ strategy you suggested me back then).

Well, he was the same (you wont expect him to change overnight though, this is not bollywood movie) and strangely I could smile at him lightly. Strangely, able to without my body trembled foolishly, without my cheek burnt hot and changed me into crabbies, and without my heart beat so fast as I thought I would have a heart attack a second after. It was kinda strange. All I knew is that he did not produce the same effect to me as last time.

I was kinda glad. It would have been a disaster if I do fall for him (and dun ask me why again, we are way too similar and having a monster in me is more than enough. and you do understand that i think ). However, I am not too sure about it.lol. nevermind. I am glad it’s over before he notices that I had a crush on him yesterday lol. though, i am not sure whether i’m totally over it… dude, it’s kinda crazy here.i know tt i should be thinking bout next week’s exam instead of playing around like this. ow.. shikatanai na.. youth life’s complicated right?

hey, it’s been a week. How’s your new school? kinda jealous of your kouhai welcome ceremony there. rock them out, dude. you can do it!

love,
Jesse

~ oleh namaewadina di/pada April 13, 2008.