(1)Yokunai

Jessica. west academic complex, 4 pm.

my face blushed (i think, as i feel it getting warmer and warmer and i dun know what to do but look in other direction but yours) and all my-already-spent hours-memorizing-vocabs gone in a second. what happen to me? it’s not fair.suddenly i feel like just fleeing away from you and the world. i’m afraid. i dun know what happen to me. my stomach suddenly feels funny in an unexplainable manner. you just smiles and makes fun of me and all i can do is replying in a stupid way.

my fingers getting colder and i am fraid i suffer from sudden hypothermic. since when the benches are this breeezy? i never know that in dry season, the wind can be this cold. even the library is warmer. my fingers never feel so lame as today, in the suposed-to-be hot benches (yea, it’s hot. it’s directly in contact with the sunshine anyway. is the coldness only my imagination?). my cheek is burning hot, and i hate all this tingly things going in my head.

ok, i’m getting nervous and i dun know why.woa, it’s not good. i think i may have heart attack the next second. why should i be nervous? the test is tomorrow anyway. this is not the way it should be. and why should you offer seeing the thing? i cannot say no. damn.

thanks God, when i left, all the things back to normal. as soon as you get out of my sight. i dunno what’s happening to me. all i know is that it’s not the way i interact with you like before. kowai sugiru. doushite?

baka.

~ oleh namaewadina di/pada April 9, 2008.